My "mind-numbing paranoia and fear"

There's this website I like to look at, www.offbeatbride.com It's nice cause its a site for girls who can't stand the traditional wedding. But more importantly, it's very real and addresses a lot of issues that brides have that are not surrounded around the "which monogram?" or "what chair covers?" type of problems.

There was a recent advice piece that was based off of a reader's plea for advice for her wedding. She has been engaged for 2 years and all of the sudden, out of nowhere, she is experiencing a kind of mind-numbing paranoia and fear about her wedding day. Worried to death literally about things going wrong, guests not liking her ideas, food being burnt, forgetting to do certain things, etc. I think she's experiencing what a lot of brides eventually experience, especially for being engaged that long.

I'm not going to lie. A few people know that I've had recurrent dreams about how our wedding could go wrong. I've had a dream where everyone else is ready for the wedding, but I've been so busy setting everything up, I left my dress at home. Another dream where I was so busy looking for all the reception details that I forgot my dress, shoes, undergarments, rings, and...pretty much everything else. Yet another dream where we were on our way to the place, and took a bad turn into a neighborhood where the Russian mafia was having a shoot out. And we had to walk across the field where they were executing their prisoners. By the time I arrived at the site, all my mom could say was "I can't believe you're so messy. There's blood on your dress."

Anyhow, I was just thinking about it, and what all these dreams (mine and hers) have in common is, the failures and deficiencies that we dream of...are really of things that are kind of petty. In reality, if you think about it. How can a wedding "fail" if you get married at the end of the day? haha!

It's unlikely that I'll stop having those dreams about the wedding til it's over. But hey, I feel pretty good knowing that the wedding probably won't flop if in the end, the paperwork is signed at we walk out Mr. and Mrs. =)

My wolf debate

It's a rather boring night in Roseburg. So.... I decided to settle the "great wolf debate" once and for all.

For those of you who have absolutely NO idea what I'm talking about, here's a little background:

It's 2007 or so. Linda, Patrick, Jared, and I were studying at the library. Was Kathy there? Dunno. The details are kinda hazy. Troy walks by and sits down and proceeds to tell us about this adventure he had in Portland. He was driving along highway 26, going to Portland.

"I was driving.....and then I SEE THIS WOLF ON THE HIGHWAY" He says

Linda frowns. "no you didn't. you didn't see a wolf. Was probably a dog"

"NO IT WAS A WOLF. I know what a wolf looks like" he insists.

We all pause for a moment.

Someone asks, "How do you know what wolves look like? Are there wolves in Hawaii?"

And so, started the great wolf debate. Errr... kinda. In reality, the great wolf debate was really just something that gets brought up every once in a while by Myron and I. When we went to Hawaii in '08, we were sure we were gonna solve the mystery....but got distracted by how awesome Kauai was instead.

So, on this very boring night in Roseburg, I consulted my web sources about this very curious question.

No, there are not wolves in Hawaii since dogs are not native to Hawaii. For the record, there are also no bears.

There.